3rd relapse this month... I started to feel that I am useless... work... family..... relationship.... friends... myself.... I can't handle anyone of them well... felt like I have no one to talk to....

i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong...i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong... i need to be strong...

Under going tremendous stress... I can't take it.... I really can't take it anymore.... *sob

Drifted away... I felt so drifted away... away... and lost..........

Adam Khoo led us to sing "Hero". I believe I can be the one... I believe I can be sucessful... I want to be successful...

YEAH!!! finally found it!!! My favourite 13 years ago!!!!

Lame Lame Lame!!

Naruto

ARHHHH.... Stressed? Worry? Sick? Sad?? ARHHHHHH.....
Do I really look like a care-free person? haiz....

Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...
Sob Sob Sob...

Okay... if you think I am not stress enough, FINE!

STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

Il y a deux manières d'être malheureux: ou désirer ce que l'on n'a pas, ou posséder ce que l'on désirait.

Comprendre, c'est pardoner.

爱情有那么困难吗？
爱一个人有那么痛苦吗？
被爱的人有那么矛盾吗？
相爱的人又不在一起，你能了解吗？
相爱的人，天天见面，又不能相似，你不觉得辛苦吗？

听见你说他的事，我的心就像被刺刀不停的割害，如此痛苦，如此的悲哀。
看见你对我不理不睬，我就像一个被母亲遗弃的小孩一半，如此的失若，如此的寂寞。
为何呢？我为何呢？我为何如此呢？我为何如此的放不下呢？

我想。。。 我想。。。 我只能一个人默默地度过。。。 一个人安静的平静。。。

2 weeks - 14 days.... I had less than 40 hrs of sleep....
so tired...
so troubled...
so..... haiz....